Thats hard, I’m sorry to hear you’re dealing with that.
One thing I learned that can help with PTSD and flashback is writing. I dealt with flashbacks and memory loss for a long time because of some things I went through when I was young. Writing it down helped clear my head as well as control the episodes to the point that after a while they stopped completely. Hasn’t been an issue for me for over a decade now.
Therapy is another really good option to assist with gaining methods to recognise and control it when it happens. Im not sure about america but in Australia you can ger ten free therapy sessions via doctor refferal under medicare. It could be something to look into.
If you ever want an ear, feel free to reach out. I wont judge you and I’m happy to listen to you.
Losing everything has been really hard. I know people are helping out and things will be better in the future, but I just keep having thoughts of doing something at home I’m used to doing, then having a panic attack remembering the inferno that anhialted everything I own.
Like I keep thinking of working or building an esk8, only to remember the puddle of slag that used to be my parts and tools. I keep thinking of using my destroyed computer, I keep thinking of making coffee in my melted aeropress.
I keep thinking of what I could have done to maybe save an esk8.
I’m going to talk to mental health tomorrow, they don’t work on weekends.
No skate, had to pay UPS an extra $100 for the ransom on my skate parts, still not enough parts in to ride.
Gotta do laundry today, gotta have it done by 2:30. Gotta get my stuff packed up and get into town today. No backpack. No transportation.
Owe someone money that I don’t have. Expected to pitch on pizza tonight with money I don’t have. No lighter, need to get one with money I don’t have. Supposed to head to my friend’s place in the city for the holidays… With money I don’t have.
Been screaming all morning too. Anxiety breakdowns sick ass. No psychiatry appointment until the bitch comes back from her overpriced holiday.
Everything is just too damn far away, too damn expensive and requires too much damn socialization.
Only time I’m calm is when I’m alone, eskating, and not spending money.
Need an interface between the deck and battery box. I know the washers, bushings and bolts method works but I’m looking for a system that I can use to swap battery boxes on the fly.
Got motors but no drivetrain yet. I have mounts that I think might work, stupidly forgot them at home today so can’t photo them for the build thread but they’re the original janaux eMTB mounts.
No helmet or pads yet either, or heel straps, but I was planning to get all that stuff last.
Oh, also gotta get and prepare a pelican case for the ESC box on the back. Got a Dual Solo.
i know what panic attack is i was there me too 15 years ago , its very scary but peoples who never have theses panic attack think you are kind of weirdo , i still have some anxiety in my life but i know i can calm down when the panic want to come back , i breath and told to my self its a bad moment but i will die for this , i talk to my self alot its only a illusion, once you know its not real you calm down alot faster , my panic was so strong , one day i have to call paramedic and i tought i have heart attack , but they told me it was only a panic attack , since then i learn to fight and i win ! so you can do it , also another thing help me alot is money , with money you can sleep better , less anxiety so the mental is getting better and better , if you already spend the money you don’t have you never able to put the head out for a breath , i hope you understand my sluggish english
its not easy for some peoples , but if you want to escape this you still need to put some effort , don’t be scare to ask help , if you ask help after fews try the help will come , if you ask help its not because you weak its because you want result and what is great about life it’s no something already created , just imagine if life was easy like that ! it will be very boring , the best thing for you is build to you own life,i am sure you are you can do it , esk8 can help you for meeting lot of nice peoples, not saying you are on drug but if you use drugs it can give panic attack for some people , i had a bad trip with only smoking weed, also weed help some poeple but when they stop smoking they start to have anxiety ,
PS feel free to pm me anytime if you need parts or just want to talk about something ,
still have nice christmas same thing for anyone who read this
you wooooould have that money if you didn’t put the funds so graciously donated by strangers hoping their money went to getting you back into a home on esk8
we all love esk8 here, but it is a luxury hobby. it’s a convenience item
complaining about being in debt/having no money when you just spent over $1000 on said luxury items isn’t the smartest move
your situation is bad, but sometimes you have to make temporary sacrifices to focus on getting everything squared up. you’re going to be digging yourself a hole
A standard bicycle is 10% of the cost of a starter esk8 and does all of the same things, most of them better. A custom electronic skateboard is a luxury item. Basic food, clothing, shelter are all not luxury items.
Nobody thinks you should be absolutely destitute and not deserving. some opinions here are just that - opinions. At the base of them is a concern for you and a want for you to make the best recovery from your tragic loss of home and belongings. Not everyone puts it down in a way that gets that across well.
Take it with a grain of salt, not every criticism is an attack. Youll be fine in time and a bike as transportation is reliable and cheap but obviously not on your list of options. All good. Your focus on eskate for transportation is a little bit confusing to me but im not here to judge. And the double as cheap recreation (which is important) is a bonus.
Hang in there bud, still gotta work out how to skate Bellingham this summer
