Mental health - please take care of it

[CHADFARTHOUSE]

I absolutely am so shameful in admitting this, but I’ve been more sufferable than I’d like to admit, nearly sacrificing this hobby for the sake of the longevity of family & selling every bit I have invested in this passion has been something on my mind this entire week and for quite some time // far more time than just this week. I’ve nearly committed action ending my life, This week But I haven’t. I’m very gracious to still be with you all, but I’m trying to my absolute best to keep pushing through & through. I’m not asking for empathy or relation. I suppose I’m trying to be somewhat resonant in reference to pushing for something beyond yourself.

This isn’t something new this isn’t something I’m happy to share.

But I really support the idea if you’re Suffering, something adjacent to keep pushing for something beyond yourself / the things at your own hands to be purposeful in a way that brings you hope

Things Allegedly get better yes
But please Involve yourself in this community. It is something that I wholeheartedly believe in more than anything else.
It is somewhat almost a religion I believe in If & so, it ever was to be.

I’m going through work and school only to inturn propel advancement in this community in reference to the mechanical and electrical aspects.

It is 1000% more than a passion for many of you and I admire so many of you beyond your understanding It’s practically a lifestyle to commit to esk8 For the thing that it is.

It is not something that you should turn a blind turn an blind eye to.

And i wish it becomes something that far more people that are currently involved become a part of.

I wish to propel it in a way that I am lacking strength to in my immediate cause.

But I love you all to death, Esk8 In many ways has given me so much to look forward to.

Spreading the passion that is needed to Go along with it

In reference to building the community behind it, trying to keep it alive building upon it and so forth

I have more to say, but I am so exhausted
I’m currently sitting on a corner Of a street nearly half dead so I know what it feels like so I never have to experience it again.

I have nearly almost died many times before but I suppose I needed a sharp reminder of what it feels like so that it can penetrate beneath my skull & taste the true meaning behind life once again.

[jack.luis]

@Sk8tedad

one 72,

Jokes aside glad you’re okay

[glyphiks]

I think it was the sideburns mate, literally needed to fight them off with a stick

[Sk8tedad]

I’m working 12s no time, I’m over due for a trim, but I’m sure a good stick to the head is an improvement

[glyphiks]

Something something… stones… glass houses… something…

[Sk8tedad]

I’m jealous of that fabulous mane

[trancejunkie]

I’m very glad you didn’t hurt them , even though you could have. Did your people figure out what the catalyst was?

[glyphiks]

Some people use product, i just use concrete dust.

For real tho, glad you’re ok and sorry this has happened, so fucked up.

[Afroleus]

I just recently recovered from one of the most dangerous spirals I’ve ever faced due to many factors. Having a support circle, making sure you can get help is paramount, otherwise sinking is very easy to do. I’m glad I’m back, and i don’t wish this on anyone.

[Sk8tedad]

Congratulations on the recovery and nice to see you posting again.

[benito898]

I can confirm from my own experience that professional support makes a huge difference. I went to Legacy Healing Center after a very difficult period and, honestly, it changed my life. It’s not just about addiction - they also have well-structured programs for mental health.

[Pecos]

Storytime: when i got diagnosed it was partly because i was getting “picked on” in school. I was just a target for the bullies and though it was never my fault there was a trick to it - i was also failing but somehow getting high marks on on the tests and placing into the 98% on everything but writing. My dad caught me in a lie and figured out my scam - i was baiting the bullies into starting fights but in a way that wasn’t quite to the level of antagonistic to get me any blame or suspensions… but still let me fight .

Just because you’re smarter and trick them into starting a fight in a way that doesn’t get you in trouble- don’t mean you didn’t start the fight. The rule became that if i got into a fight i was in trouble regardless if who actually started it.

[Pecos]

Sorry dude, you gotta be out here learning shit and growing as a person for your whole dam life. The alternative is not fun. Bomb disposal is a part of my adhd - im attracted to tension and stress and sometimes that’s where you can also do the most good too.
The upside is that in high stress situations you can perform where others can’t or are paralyzed by the stress without significantly more training.

[Pecos]

I know right? I looked into it and i just can’t support a family. Also did a year of high angle rescue and even though it takes tons of training and experience and is physically demanding it pays nearly nothing. The crossover with electrical work is tower work and pay i s even worse.

Im mean come on people, i just want to climb 80+ feet in the air perform a rescue after stabilizing your situation and injuries while avoiding the hazards that put you into the this awkward situation quickly and without making any mistakes as then we both die, in a remote location in the middle of the night while someone is also filming, for more than $20 an hour

Is that really too much to ask? Seriously worked on the budget to try and make it work with the wife and just couldn’t make my house payment or retire.

[TimR]

I assume most who build and ride what they’ve built are likely nuts. Myself included.

Normal folks just buy into the marketing, and the evolve or propel sits under the bed gathering dust next to their polished shoe collection.

My jobs stressful, too stressful. Too many flights, too many Sundays packing tools and spare parts in with clothes, an acoustic longboard if I’m lucky using an ice hockey bag. Too many expectations to do everything most folk can’t or don’t want to do. Today, a windows 7 based CNC software reinstall as well as electrical faults and in a timeframe I expect nobody else could have achieved.

I don’t have ADHD, but that’s only because I haven’t gone to visit Dr. Shrinky-Cunt. Do I cope with the stress? No, but skating helps especially when it’s loose AF.

It’s okay to be fucking batshit. The best Cunts are.

[Pecos]

Hey, i love this community, even all you cunts in upside down land too. Was having a really rough couple months keeping my outlook positive and it’s always nice to pop on here and share this crazy hobby with yall and see all the cool shit people are working on. This community is so generous and genuine and it’s a special thing for me. Never before have i been able to nerd out so hard and to such a welcoming and supportive (even if critical of certain poor practices) group of folks. Getting to actually meet many of yall at events and group rides and the local pnwesk8 crew is like icing on the cake.

Had a member of our greater pev community pass away suddenly and im taking it kind hard. Rest in peace Rich - you were a catalyst for gathering so many good people and such a kind and funny friend and your sudden absence is a pleasant ach for how great it was to know you. I couldn’t go to your viewing before the cremation because i can’t see you like that. Im sorry, but i love you, and you’d understand cause you’re like that.

[TimR]

It’s hard being a person.

[fessyfoo]

i have a hard time with it sometimes.

[TimR]

How do you know if someone’s normal?

I wonder if it’s easy to interpret someone as normal by not actually knowing that well, so we stereotype them in the “normal” category.

Personally, I don’t really hang out with, or get along with those who most likely represent the normal category.

The best folks, by definition cannot normal. Nor can the worst, but they’re beat avoided.