I’m learning a lot about myself and why I do this. I’m trying to be self reflective with myself but not critical. I made some positive healt changes in the last year. I got off medication that was suppressing testosterone. Now my T levels have gone up by 38%, body composition is more favorable, but aggressive behavior is up too. Normally I’m scared of doing something stupid so I’ll bail. Now I’m saying stupid stuff that is not helping deescalate, in fact under the right circumstances, I find myself looking for conflict
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by the way, thanks for engaging. And humanizing it so I don’t feel like some kind of monstrous idiot. and yes, we’ve decided that any fights that happens at work with Jason is partially Jason‘s fault.
Sorry for typos, brain is misfiring
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I just need to make this a positive. Yes I became focused in stressful situations, I’m home, in the zone. Too bad EMT pays 1/3 what I make. I’d be perfect,
Again, brain misfiring, typos
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I know right? I looked into it and i just can’t support a family. Also did a year of high angle rescue and even though it takes tons of training and experience and is physically demanding it pays nearly nothing. The crossover with electrical work is tower work and pay i s even worse.
Im mean come on people, i just want to climb 80+ feet in the air perform a rescue after stabilizing your situation and injuries while avoiding the hazards that put you into the this awkward situation quickly and without making any mistakes as then we both die, in a remote location in the middle of the night while someone is also filming, for more than $20 an hour 
Is that really too much to ask? Seriously worked on the budget to try and make it work with the wife and just couldn’t make my house payment or retire.
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Interesting! I have enough time in to retire once my age and years of service equals 85. I’m 5 years away at 52, but I can’t get social security until at least 62 and I have become convinced I’ll never get the money I’ve paid into Social Security, because you know Trump and any one who supports him can suck my left nut and make me right nut jealous ( I’m not a sugar coated guy)
However! I could get my union pension and start working a “ stressful “ job that pays low in money, but high in social returns!
I hate people in groups, however I’m a kind softhearted chap who wants to contribute to society. I really think in 5 years I might retire and get a job employing my “ special gifts”
very intrigued!!
The point of the mental health topic is to make it ok to discuss this stuff, make people aware they are not alone. If you’re reading this and could use some mental health care, then you should take this as a sign from the “ universe ( I m wearing a creepy universe hat as I type this, universe is telling you to get help!!”
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Argh! Lads, let me tell ya if you live in the US, good luck with mental health care. I was trying to get help with adhd,but because I was raised by wolves, they are sure I have ptsd and therefore CANT be accessed for ADHD. Do I have ptsd, probably, but does this mean I don’t have ADHD ( like both my children!!?)? I’m thinking the 2 are not mutually exclusive.
When you see people have mental breakdowns in this country, please don’t assume they didn’t try to get help.
Be kind to people and watch who you get in to conflict with, some of them might be an accomplished amateur fighter and some one who has been trying to get mental health care. The wrong situation can put you into conflict with someone who doesn’t want to hurt you.
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I assume most who build and ride what they’ve built are likely nuts. Myself included.
Normal folks just buy into the marketing, and the evolve or propel sits under the bed gathering dust next to their polished shoe collection.
My jobs stressful, too stressful. Too many flights, too many Sundays packing tools and spare parts in with clothes, an acoustic longboard if I’m lucky using an ice hockey bag. Too many expectations to do everything most folk can’t or don’t want to do. Today, a windows 7 based CNC software reinstall as well as electrical faults and in a timeframe I expect nobody else could have achieved.
I don’t have ADHD, but that’s only because I haven’t gone to visit Dr. Shrinky-Cunt. Do I cope with the stress? No, but skating helps especially when it’s loose AF.
It’s okay to be fucking batshit. The best Cunts are.
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Hey, i love this community, even all you cunts in upside down land too. Was having a really rough couple months keeping my outlook positive and it’s always nice to pop on here and share this crazy hobby with yall and see all the cool shit people are working on. This community is so generous and genuine and it’s a special thing for me. Never before have i been able to nerd out so hard and to such a welcoming and supportive (even if critical of certain poor practices) group of folks. Getting to actually meet many of yall at events and group rides and the local pnwesk8 crew is like icing on the cake.
Had a member of our greater pev community pass away suddenly and im taking it kind hard. Rest in peace Rich - you were a catalyst for gathering so many good people and such a kind and funny friend and your sudden absence is a pleasant ach for how great it was to know you. I couldn’t go to your viewing before the cremation because i can’t see you like that. Im sorry, but i love you, and you’d understand cause you’re like that.
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It’s hard being a person.